crazy_lil_3mmy's Datingish

Happy Birthday.

Mon, 09 Mar 2009 02:09:38 GMT

Today is his birthday
Part of me wants to be with him, but another part of me doesn't
Everyday I think of him, wondering if he's ok
Oh God let him be ok...
As I lay here on my bed, typing on my iPod, sick as hell, I'm hoping his friends are treating him right.
I don't care if I'm sick, I don't care if I throw up, as long as he's ok, I'll be at peace.
For months it's been a constant battle, and I think my body has reached its breaking point.
But I must continue fighting, because maybe, just maybe, I'll finally win.
Lately it feels like I'm living in a dream, a nightmare actually
Sometimes I bite myself to see if I'm awake.
Everything is so blurry, I can't keep up.
It's pass 11 and I need my sleep, but before I go, I had to wish you a happy birthday, even though you don't want it.
If it seems like the world has turned its back against you, turn to God, ask and he will give you what is yours.
People aren't perfect, heck they can destroy each other, but God would never forget you nor forsake you.
Even though I can never be with you again, my heart will always be with you, forever and always.

Questions of the Day!

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 19:36:25 GMT

Do you believe in soul mates?

By soul mates, I mean, someone that God has made especially for you.

Do you believe that no matter whatever you do or wherever you go, there is someone out there just for you?

Do you believe in the saying "if it is meant to be, then it is meant to be"?

Questions of the day!

Fri, 23 Jan 2009 02:39:22 GMT

Would you like it if/when your significant other attends a strip bar?
I didn't ask "would you allow your significant other to go" but rather "would you have a problem with it"?
And would it matter if he was drunk?

Questions of the day

Mon, 12 Jan 2009 22:49:00 GMT

Do you believe in second chances when it comes to relationships?
If so, how about three, four, five, even an infinite number of chances?
Where do you draw the line?

Question!

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 22:54:52 GMT

One of the reasons why my mother does not believe that my ex was right for me is the fact that he is almost exactly like me: temper, attitude, you name it.

Is it better for opposites to attract, or is it better to find someone who's like you?

Loner

Mon, 29 Dec 2008 03:57:08 GMT

During supper, my brother, whom still acts like a kid, announced that he has a girlfriend. This afternoon, one of my friends, who broke up with her ex in the fall, told me that she has a new boyfriend. Couple of weeks ago, my other friend, who's more on the "tomboy-ish" side, said she has a boyfriend. I said that I'm happy for all of them, however that is not how I completely feel. When my ex left me, they supported me, but now that they are busy with their new other half, it makes me feel like the third wheel, or when they're all together like "double-dating-ish" or just talking about each other or what each couple did together, it makes me feel like a loner.

Why has everyone found someone when I just lost mine at the same time?
Is it so wrong to feel this way?

How Far is Too Far For a Parent to Go?

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 15:11:30 GMT

As previously stated, my mother hates my ex. Recently, she noticed that I've been talking to someone on the phone every couple of nights after midnight, and every now and then the morning after she would notice that my eyes became puffy due to excessive crying. So, one day, when I wasn't in my room, she took my phone and looked up the "recent calls" list and discovered that I've been still talking to my ex. What she did next was to tell my godfather about it and he was steamed as well. So, he called him and told him to never EVER pick up when I call or to never call me again. Not only was that all, but later on my mom decided to call him herself as well and said the very same things. Afterwards, when they were done with him, my mom told me that if I was to ever contact him ever again, I would be kicked out of the house because she doesn't want anything to do with him. It's like one of those "choose your family or him" situations again...

Do I have the rights to my own private life or is it right of them to interfere because they're wiser and I live under my mom's roof (typical Chinese saying *sigh*)?

And, did I make a right decision for sticking with my family instead of my fiance?

Am I a bad girlfriend?

Wed, 10 Dec 2008 17:30:24 GMT

Question: As previously stated, my ex and I have been together for a bit over five years. During our last year, he proposed and wanted us to move in together. Even though I loved the idea, I had to be realistic. First of all, we're both students and he's in debt. Second, my mom would KILL me considering the fact that it's against "Chinese culture" and religion. However, I do agree with the latter. So, at first he said he was willing to wait, but months passed and he just went into a "move in with me now or never" tantrum. So, that's one of the main reasons why we broke up after all these years. He said that he's willing to do everything for me and to put me first, whereas I have other priorities in life. So, in the end, he said that he loves me more than I love him, and that this relationship isn't fair for him and blablabla...He's the one with more freedom, shouldn't he consider the fact that I have limitations? Or am I just being selfish?

Monday, December 08, 2008

Mon, 08 Dec 2008 16:45:19 GMT

So, here's my story:

I've been with this guy for a bit over five years and obviously we were madly in love with each other. However, coming from different worlds, we had different opinions about almost everything and that would lead us to argue alot. And what made things worse was that we were both very stubborn individuals. Even though we constantly argued, we also hoped that our love would save us...but that only happens in fairy tales right?

Anyways, one day, we were on the verge of breaking up (again and again...) he proposed to me. Thing is, I'm the logical person in the relationship whereas he was more of the emotional type. I wanted to say YES! at first, but instead I asked him questions like "are you serious?" or "are you sure you know what you are doing" and in my mind it was more like "mom's going to kill me" or "mom's going to have a heart attack"

Indeed, my mother hated him. He had major family issues and left school because he couldn't concentrate in all this drama even though he's like a genius/geek. Also because he's not Chinese nor Christian but that's beside the point...

So, we were engaged for like...a month? He broke it off because we had another major fight...and from then on, everything went downhill...

In our fifth year, everything was just...bad. To sum it up, I called him a couple of nights ago and he said that we should forget about each other and just move on...I know we've broken up tones of times, but this time he said that he's not even sure that he still loves me...

So, here I am, typing all this down knowing that I shouldn't because I'm trying my hardest to just forget about his existence...

Am I just stupid hoping that one day we'll be together again and for good? I think so...

[This is the simplest version of my story. If you guys want more info, I'm happy to share it with you guys. Comments and questions are welcome]

Monday, December 08, 2008

Mon, 08 Dec 2008 16:13:22 GMT

Hi everyone! So, as you can see, I've just joined this bloring. I'm hoping that this would help me feel better about what I'm going through. Feel free to leave questions and comments, I'm open to anything.

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